So...last night

Last night was only somewhat of a success. I got kind of drunk for 20 dollars. Well, I ate too, so the expenses of food were entangled in there on my tab as well. Rachel and I had fish and chips. But eating and getting drunk wasn't the best part of the night.

The night didn't go badly, well, until later on while I was lying in bed with my boyfriend. James was acting fine all night, (pretty much) but then at the end, after sex...he got funny. Really funny. I wanted to do it again and he didn't want to...so he flipped out when I tried to get him to. I didn't much care, but I didn't come so I had some built-up sexual frustration that I wanted to relieve. I guess I got pretty annoying with my "pleases" and "come ons" but he yelled at me to stop, which hurt. I started to feel really disgruntled from kind of trying to set Rachel up with James' friend, Shawn, all night, so I felt guilty, and told him that. It was starting to become quite a big problem for me (the guilt) so I kept talking about it and James got even more annoyed. He yelled at me some more and I left to go check up on Rachel and Shawn, who were now hanging out in his bed in his room. I felt funny; I felt like this was my fault. I knew she wouldn't cheat on Cody, or at least hoped, but she cheated on Erik so I wasn't 100% sure. Erik was a horrible boyfriend though, so I don't look badly on her for it.

It's funny - today Cody bought her flowers and gave them to her. It made me feel more shitty. She told me not to worry about it - so I'm trying not to beat myself up over it. Cody's a nice guy. I was just trying to be a good friend. It backfired.

Back to the main point though...James felt really bad for last night and apologized this morning, said he was drunk. Didn't mean to yell at me. Happens, I guess? I forgave him. I told him I was used to it, only not from him. I think that made him feel really bad, which wasn't my intention. He's not a bad guy.

Rachel said Helzberg Diamond's got robbed early this morning. That was scary for her...they stole like 26k worth of watches and merchandise.

Tonight I'm going to a Drag Revue at WSU. Exciting! Haha. All the proceeds go charity for AIDs research. Should be fun, Llovely and James are coming. I'll report on that tomorrow.